It’s Christmas again, my sixty-third to be exact. It’s fun to look back at the many Christmases I enjoyed in my life as a child, teen, as a young mother, and now as a grandmother. This picture is me, probably about 1959 in Southern California. The tree looks pretty sad compared to the trees of today, but I’m sure I thought it was the most beautiful thing I’d ever seen. Perspective is everything when it comes to the holidays. Christmas itself has taken on a new meaning for me now, as I know that my future is one of limited Christmases. How many, I don’t know, but that makes each one I do make it to, something to celebrate.
I know last year I was wondering if I’d be here this Christmas, and here I am, no worse for wear. I did hire someone to mow my lawn over the summer because I’m just not up to that any more. I have some painful, strange days occasionally where I’m sure things are spreading and getting worse, and then it just disappears. I had a day like that a couple of weeks ago and so approached my scheduled CT scan this month with some trepidation. I still despise having to go through the whole process of drinking that potion, and waiting, waiting, waiting to go in. They had an unexpected delay yesterday, so I had to sit there for two hours waiting to go in for the test. The results were posted online in a short amount of time (that part I like!) and it appears that there is some small tumor growth, but like last time, mostly stable from the last scan 3-1/2 months ago!
I am still taking the canine dewormer (see https://www.mycancerstory.rocks/) as described in a previous blog of mine. I have also been on Avastin every three weeks as a maintenance chemo drug. I came across another suggestion (https://www.holisticprimarycare.net/latest-articles/2041-delta-tocotrienol-improves-survival-in-advanced-ovarian-cancer.html) which involves taking delta-tocotrienol, a different form of vitamin E, in conjunction with Avastin to slow the progression of ovarian cancer. It took me a while to find the right kind and dose on the internet, and it is a bit pricey, but I have been taking 1 or 2 of those every day as well. Here is the link for what I bought: https://www.dailybenefit.com/products/annatto-e-300mg-delta-gamma-tocotrienols
You can look for cheaper but I don’t think you’ll find it. These are 300 mg and there are 60 softgels in a bottle, and if you get set up for regular shipments they are even cheaper. Anyway, I am going to show this article to my oncologist at my next appointment and see what he thinks. This is an appointment where we will figure out the next step and I am going to lobby to continue with the Avastin and the other things I am taking.
May your days be merry and bright, and may we observe Christmas not just as a season of “Greetings” or “Happy Holidays” but as a celebration of the birth of the Son of God and a time to remember His teachings and the eternal significance of his atonement. Love to all…