Another Christmas

It’s Christmas again, my sixty-third to be exact. It’s fun to look back at the many Christmases I enjoyed in my life as a child, teen, as a young mother, and now as a grandmother. This picture is me, probably about 1959 in Southern California. The tree looks pretty sad compared to the trees of today, but I’m sure I thought it was the most beautiful thing I’d ever seen. Perspective is everything when it comes to the holidays. Christmas itself has taken on a new meaning for me now, as I know that my future is one of limited Christmases. How many, I don’t know, but that makes each one I do make it to, something to celebrate.

I know last year I was wondering if I’d be here this Christmas, and here I am, no worse for wear. I did hire someone to mow my lawn over the summer because I’m just not up to that any more. I have some painful, strange days occasionally where I’m sure things are spreading and getting worse, and then it just disappears. I had a day like that a couple of weeks ago and so approached my scheduled CT scan this month with some trepidation. I still despise having to go through the whole process of drinking that potion, and waiting, waiting, waiting to go in. They had an unexpected delay yesterday, so I had to sit there for two hours waiting to go in for the test. The results were posted online in a short amount of time (that part I like!) and it appears that there is some small tumor growth, but like last time, mostly stable from the last scan 3-1/2 months ago!

I am still taking the canine dewormer (see as described in a previous blog of mine. I have also been on Avastin every three weeks as a maintenance chemo drug. I came across another suggestion ( which involves taking delta-tocotrienol, a different form of vitamin E, in conjunction with Avastin to slow the progression of ovarian cancer. It took me a while to find the right kind and dose on the internet, and it is a bit pricey, but I have been taking 1 or 2 of those every day as well. Here is the link for what I bought:

You can look for cheaper but I don’t think you’ll find it. These are 300 mg and there are 60 softgels in a bottle, and if you get set up for regular shipments they are even cheaper. Anyway, I am going to show this article to my oncologist at my next appointment and see what he thinks. This is an appointment where we will figure out the next step and I am going to lobby to continue with the Avastin and the other things I am taking.

May your days be merry and bright, and may we observe Christmas not just as a season of “Greetings” or “Happy Holidays” but as a celebration of the birth of the Son of God and a time to remember His teachings and the eternal significance of his atonement. Love to all…



One thought on “Another Christmas

  1. I love the Christmas tree picture above – all the tinsel so carefully distributed! I thought a tree had to have tinsel in order to look pretty – but have given it up! Mostly because you can’t find it anymore! I always loved coming over to your house to see your Christmas gifts on Christmas afternoons! So many of my childhood memories include you and your family! Merry Christmas Marcia! and many more to come!!


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